Where do you find the energy and motivation to work out??
Since February, I’ve been pretty blah. No energy. No drive. No motivation to do anything. It didn’t help that I had been prescribed Celexa for extreme anxiety back in October of last year, and two of the side effects: weight gain and extreme fatigue hit me pretty hard. Since October, I have gained a remarkable 35 pounds back. At my lowest I was 170!
I’m used to walking and getting out. I can usually be seen pounding the pavement with my iPhone earbuds in. I love walking and a typical day for me (during the summer) is spent power walking for 2.5 hours. However for the past few months, I haven’t wanted to exercise or participate in anything.
I recently went to the doctor and voiced my concern. What was wrong with me? Why do I feel like this? Tests came back with: chronic inflammation of the intestines and a sluggish thyroid (“slightly under active” was the term the doctor’s nurse used). My doctor advised a two week dairy and gluten free diet…. That’s expensive though and I don’t have the proper support to do it.. 😦
I’ve decided to stop taking my anxiety meds all together, as they make me moody, rather like I was wearing a horcrux from Harry Potter. I’ve been angry, sad, depressed and all together not like myself.
The only thing left to do is to find my previous level of activity. I have been in a constant struggle with weight since I was a teenager, and being gay, the constant desire to be one of “the guys” has always plagued me. I have a boyfriend who loves me regardless, still I’m unhappy with myself – physically.
What do I do?!